Thursday, March 12, 2009

: feeling so pissed off for at the moment!!

feeling so pissed right now.. don't know why.. perhaps it is due to my dissertation preparations...
not sure myself whether im going on de right track or motivated to do my final year project... honestly i just don't know why... all the journals which i hope i searched are the right ones are laying on the bed as we are speaking here... detailed layout have been prepared.. yet still cant managed to find that source of motivation just to start typing... HAIZ!!!!
maybe it is all due to the stupid incident, which is still at it is making me burns like hell.. if u somehow could just understand how it feels like... and it is certainly not helping when my own supervisor is not replying to me like any other supervisors... seriously my motivation is low... while my classmates are reading their replies and emailing their supervisors about their thesis.. mine seems to be MIA.. this really makes me so sad to know what type of supervisor i have.. it is not that i complaint but somehow, perhaps some proactiveness may be do some justice... certainly make me so reluctant to do it... but somehow i have just need to find that in me to carry on... OH GOD, just give me a little strength to pull k.. it is simply so hard to focus and do what i want to right now... especially knowing what kind of supervisor i have... DAMN I HATE JOANNA TO THE MAX... PERIOD!!!! and i am this close to said that to my supp.....
Then again, these are just distractions and i have to just walked away to look forward.. JUST TO DO WELL.....
feeling so unmotivated right now....
if you could just understand how its feel... coz it is DAMN SUCKS!!!!!