So upset with my performance during viva vocae... i din expected that it was going to be so bad for me.... Urgh... Nways the day have been so bad for me.... Truly so bad.....:(
Started out that i was almost late for my viva even though i went out house at 930am... The train service was so horrible... too almost AN HOUR TO REACH JURONG EAST..... oh yes... 1030am and i am still at Jurong east yet the next train comes almost 6 to 7 minutes interval... that i decided to take a cab down.. the cab driver was so fast that i reached there by 1055am... Didnt even managed to see Yati at the canteen as i just rushed to the viva room... and to know that there 3 more person before me who r yet to go....haiz...
The viva vocae was just an icing to my bad day.... though i could said my whole speech but i simply cant open my mouth to answer the questions. MY WHOLE MIND JUST GOES BLANK!! I was either giving one simple answer to the questions i thought i know or smiling to those i dont. I was seriously BLANK!! I was practically looking at Dr Mani and Dr Syn the whole time.They were trying their best to get answers from my mouth but there were so much that they could do. My mouth simply refused to cooperate with my brain. Only God knows how much i wanted to cry and just walked away. It was that bad. Super bad!! How i was so disappointed with myself. Not because i didnt do well but because i know the answers to the questions yet i just simply could not answer it.. Questions as simple as 'WHAT IS A CELL LINE?" i knew the answer at the back of my head but Why cant i get it out!! It was so frustrating.WHATS WRONG WITH ME??? That was the most painful 15 minutes ever in my entire life.:(
The moment i stepped out of the room, i knew i screwed up BIG TIME. I never had that feeling before in any exam. Previously, i knew i could somehow make it. However, this time round, i could helped but to feel remorse over my bad performance. I guess ppl who have ever experienced it will know what it is like.Usually, I dont cry over it but i prefer to be alone to think through what has happened. This time is exceptional.
BG indeed to me is a very hard module. Didnt have that motivation to even revise it . VIVA just make it even worst. If i cant even answer that simple questions during Viva... how am i suppose to do my written exam.....
Urgh.... my friends were trying to cheer me up and i thanked their efforts... however i simply cant forget that incident cos i was so disappointed in myself. Just wana laugh and smile but i cant for now. Even met Fc for awhile... Cos i just wana be in my room and sleep... Sleep away the incident.
It is only 20% of the module but indeed it is a very hard one to get. Yes, there 70% that i could focus on.But the feeling of regret of not doing best for that 20% component that maybe a different to the whole final result. Great, knowing i screw big time for that... and my 20% just fly off just like that.
So what im going to do now... work my ass off the paper.... And maybe i could just pull through some how... it better be.... coz it is the last paper... sucks isnt it....
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